Hey Guys, guess who's turning 26 in two days.....

Sorry I haven't written in awhile. It just gets to a point where there are no words. I just had a nice dinner with a retired dutch couple.
Right now I have never been so happy and unhappy at the same time. Basically I live my live with dualities right now. Foreigner/Resident, American/Cameroonian, Effective/Ineffective, Outrageously happy/want to crawl into a hole somewhere, Disgustingly dirty/ refreshingly clean (once a week), Fitting in by disregarding everything I knew up until 10 months ago/ sticking to my work ethic in order to facilitate change.
Homesickness. It's not like before where even watching a movie set in the US was saddening, but now its more like eveytime I am reminded of something from home, such as Amici deli, ice cubes, or dry erase boards, I feel a dull ache, similar to the empty hole that a loved one leaves in your heart when they die.
I just took a shower in the dark because the power went out in the middle of it. When the power goes out here, its pitch black. You cannot even see your hand if you put it up in front of your face. I didn't feel like leaving the shower, so I just finished up, which wasn't difficult. Then I stumbled around in the dark until I found my headlamp. Now I'm switching off between fanning myself manually with a piece of cardboard and typing this. Yes I work up a sweat by just sitting here.
It is hot season. By hot I mean 140 degrees. A typical day for me is waking up around 7 (I sleep in late, I know). I eat a breakfast consisting of water and bread with a little peanut butter or if I'm lucky, nutella on top. Hey, at least the water is icy because I put it in the freezer the night before. I put some sunblock on my face and a scarf on my head, and then walk to school. The sun is already blazing at about 100, but it feels cool compared to what's coming. I go to school, where I'm expected to say good morning to everyone and shake their hand. Then I go teach a couple classes. Horrendous is I good word to describe my classes. Everyone is hot, tired, thirsty, hungry, and god knows what else. Today I saw a student not writing so I said start writing, and he lifted his hand up from under the desk and it was swollen to 4 times its normal size. What do you do in that situation?
After class I do administrative tasks that come with being the head of the department. If I had a dime for everytime I found out about a meeting after it had happened.....I chat with a student or two,co-workers, and then head home around 2 or so. There is no one on the streets except for people that have passed out from sun stroke before they got to their house. It is a struggle to walk home. I honestly see mirages with blue raspberry slushies from the gas station. They do sell frozen juices here called follere or bilboa which are absolutely delicious and I take full advantage of these, even though I could get many different GI infections from it. By the time I get home, I feel dizzy and lethargic. I quickly chug a liter and a half of water (my second of the day) and heat up some food. Then I lay down (with my fan going full blast) until about 4. Finally it gets back down to about 100 again and I can be semi-productive, preparing lessons, washing dishes or clothes, sweeping my house. The dust. Don't even get me started on the dust I'm supposed to sweep everyday. For dinner I have pasta or rice. I really am having the time of my life!